Earlier today, I posted some verses from Isaiah. I was in a hurry so didn't elaborate...so here are a few more thoughts.
The past 6 months my schedule has been all out of whack. My "typical" morning schedule had been:
5:30-6:30 - get up, dressed, have a cup of tea and spend time with God (read the Bible, pray, journal), and if time, check facebook & email.
6:30 - 8:00 - kids get up, breakfast, start laundry, get kids dressed, older kids off to school, clean up breakfast.
However, my "ideal" schedule has just not been working ever since Micah learned to crawl out of the crib and we moved him to a regular bed. He seems to be a very light sleeper and will usually get up as soon as I do (or when Randy leaves). For various reasons, putting him back to bed and telling him to stay there is simply not ideal at the moment (even if I'd really, really like to do it...and I will...when the time is right). Anyway, naps were also horrible (as I've blogged about in the past). They got better when I separated everyone back in September or October (when I was having my health issues that we eventually figured out were due to stress and sleep deprivation). So, I've been very frustrated with not having my morning time with God, and having naptime not working real well as an option since the boys weren't staying put well consistently, and I was exhausted by bedtime.
This week I finally let go of my "ideal" for the moment and decided that I simply must come up with a new schedule. So, for now, I am sleeping in (6:30-7:00) even though I sometimes complain about it and wish it were different (and still have the alarm set for 5:15, even though it's not working out). At this point, this is best for us (but it will change in the future....after all, nothing is certain except change!). And I recently discovered that if I put Micah to bed at naptime and shut the door, it (usually) works better, so I started doing that. So I am now making an effort to have my "morning time" as soon as I put the boys down for their nap...and I don't even have to worry about making noise when I make my tea or coffee like I do in the morning. :-)
Last year I started reading through the Bible chronologically (inspired by
Kimmie). I was using a reading plan designed to get through the Bible in a year. That didn't happen, but I'm picking up this year where I left off. And hopefully it doesn't take me all year to finish the last weeks.
Today my reading was Isaiah 40-43. When I read:
"He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young."
Isaiah 40:11
I thought "that's wonderful, so encouraging, just what I needed to hear...why go on?!" I love that God leads me. But I did go on and continued to read these wonderful chapters. I fully admit that I don't understand everything in the prophetic books. I know some has happened, and some is still to come, and He is in control. And I find such comfort in words such as "he gently leads those that have young." as well as the others that I posted early including "I have called you by name, you are mine".
(Pause while I check on noisy little boys who may or may not be in their respective beds.)
Anyway, those are a few of my thoughts today. And it was good to sit down tonight and remember what I had thought about earlier...tonight when I have worked hard at getting the house in order today and it again looks like a hurricane hit it (guess what some kids will be doing after breakfast?!)....and so I'm feeling discouraged....and then I read the verses again and gained strength to keep going instead of just giving up.
Enjoy your weekend!